[CloudNull]

Well I generally meant relative to me, even before the slump I got myself in I wasn't at the level nearly all of you seemingly are. I'm in a similar boat to @OutrageousFacts but for me I think I could cope with the depression if not for the anxiety. I could always just be a late bloomer and eventually overcome this shit though.

After the military I went through major bouts of depression... almost knecked myself because of childhood trauma and I bounced from job to job. Took years of therapy and lived at home with my mom until I was 27 and didn't know I wanted to go into tech until I was 30. 6 years ago I was making 9 dollars an hour and I'm now pulling down 6 figures. My old self would have never believed where I am now. I thought I was destined to be homeless.

Life is a trip and everyone's journey is different. Stop feeling sorry for yourself, keep lifting and moving forward everyday until you reach that tipping point. When that tipping point comes make sure you don't let it pass you by. We all gonna make it.

 

[Stouffers]

Well I generally meant relative to me, even before the slump I got myself in I wasn't at the level nearly all of you seemingly are. I'm in a similar boat to @OutrageousFacts but for me I think I could cope with the depression if not for the anxiety. I could always just be a late bloomer and eventually overcome this shit though.

 

[Explosive Zombie]

Are most of you successful or do these just sound fancy

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Edible Vagina? Like the ones they sell at Spencer's Gifts?

 

[Dr. Farnsgoth]

Well I generally meant relative to me, even before the slump I got myself in I wasn't at the level nearly all of you seemingly are. I'm in a similar boat to @OutrageousFacts but for me I think I could cope with the depression if not for the anxiety. I could always just be a late bloomer and eventually overcome this shit though.

you can do eet

 

[regawdless]

Well I generally meant relative to me, even before the slump I got myself in I wasn't at the level nearly all of you seemingly are. I'm in a similar boat to @OutrageousFacts but for me I think I could cope with the depression if not for the anxiety. I could always just be a late bloomer and eventually overcome this shit though.

Everyone is different and shit can be rough. I grew up with parents who came to this country with literally nothing except two small kids. Worked extremely hard and overcame a ton of challenges. They always hold me to very high standards, they were pretty dominant. Making me insecure and avoiding pressure situations, I was very anxious and just couldn't deal with it. I was literally afraid of doing something wrong.

To the degree that at my first job after university, in a high pressure environment at an airport, I literally hid in bathrooms sometimes because it was too much for me. Tons of work, low pay, colleagues who wanted to get rid of me, many hostile people. In additional to my personal life being messy back then.

At some point I decided that I can't stand my pathetic self and forced myself to get my shit together. Read books about how to change my own behavior etc. Set goals, defined ways and "just" did it. It's pretty incredible how effectively one can change his own mind, we are basically programmable.

To this day I take a deep breath before some phone calls or situations, but it's way better. I have a family to provide for so I have a good motivation to be strong and kick my ass every day. We tend to create negative downward spirals, while ignoring that we can also create positive momentum. The hard part is to actually convince ourselves that we work on that every day.

 

[Explosive Zombie]

P p p p 0 p0 p p0 p 0 p p 0 p p p p 0p p p p0p p

This is why you don't go to sleep with your phone still in your hand...

 

[BFNoise]

I'm Software Architect at middle-sized retail company. Worked as IT Project Manager and CIO (downshifted voluntarily).

As for success, for me success is when your possibilities overcome your demands. In this sense I'm very successful.

 

[Frito_Pendejo]

Edible Vagina? Like the ones they sell at Spencer's Gifts?

I mean, somebody has to test those things out

 

[FactsAreDead]

Well I generally meant relative to me, even before the slump I got myself in I wasn't at the level nearly all of you seemingly are. I'm in a similar boat to @OutrageousFacts but for me I think I could cope with the depression if not for the anxiety. I could always just be a late bloomer and eventually overcome this shit though.

You think I don't have anxiety? Hah ...

sadlol

(I'm sure you can do better than me, though. I'm just human garbage at this point in life, writing about some injustices and stupidities in the entertainment industry for a meaningless blog. But I'm keeping at it. Why not try to be better for as long as one isn't dead *shrugs* And yes, I just happened to be in the mood for some self-pity ^^)

 

[Explosive Zombie]

You think I don't have anxiety? Hah ...

sadlol

(I'm sure you can do better than me, though. I'm just human garbage at this point in life, writing about some injustices and stupidities in the entertainment industry for a meaningless blog. But I'm keeping at it. Why not try to be better for as long as one isn't dead *shrugs* And yes, I just happened to be in the mood for some self-pity ^^)

I guess those do go hand in hand for most people. In 2006 I had a panic attack so bad I went to urgent care believing I was dying, when nothing was wrong with me they recc'd I see a psychiatrist and she put me on an anti-anxiety and an anti-depressant despite depression not being brought up. To me depression is a state of mind whereas the anxiety is physical, I legitimately feel it, so I always worried more about my anxiety, I feel like I know how to look at the positive side of life but if the anxiety stems from depression then it must mean the stress of things gets to me worse than I believe it does. Consciously, though, I don't think of myself as unhappy, I certainly don't do things like call myself human garbage, though I do see the success of others and it can deflate my sense of self worth a bit it's a bit extreme, to me, to translate that into self-loathing.

In particular, since for me I believe my problems to be chemically based (they kind of struck me out of nowhere when I hit a certain age) I feel it'd be weird to beat myself up too much for not achieving what other people are with these hurdles in front of me. You'll run into a lot of people who say things like "we all get sad, we all have anxiety" but I guarantee they don't understand what it is to truly suffer from these issues, I remember my life before these issues were this bad and yes I got bored/moody and anxious about things but the difference is pretty distinct and clear. If you're doing what you can despite your limitations I'm not sure the self-pity is required.

 

[Dreamlord]

I started suffering from anxiety since I was 10 years old. Back then, as a kid, I had no idea what was going on. All I could feel and say to my parents was, I feel severe anxiety and stress. It came out of nowhere and it took a couple of days or so to go away. My parents had no idea how to deal with it, but it was not debilitating or anything like that. Just really crap.

Fast forward to my 20s, I spent the majority of them having panic attacks and anxiety that again would come out of nowhere and last 2-4 days. Again, not debilitating, but they really fucked up a good portion of my month.

I reached a point were I got so fed up with it, that I decided I needed to do something. The first thing that helped, was an acceptance that they will happen and I can't really avoid them or predict them. The second was the realisation and understanding that they only last two or three days max.

Once I reached that step, then whenever the panic attacks came, I would realise it was happening, not fight them and take comform in the fact that it will be gone in a couple of days and I can continue with my life.

This went on for a few years until they became sparser and sparser and have mostly disappeared. I felt incredibly proud of myself for dealing with this problem, because it was really affecting my life severely.

Nowadays, I get anxiety once in a while but it is always about what the future holds and I manage it fairly well. One thing that always helps me, is feeling in control of my life, as much as possible anyway, since we are hardly in control of life.

 

[Explosive Zombie]

I started suffering from anxiety since I was 10 years old. Back then, as a kid, I had no idea what was going on. All I could feel and say to my parents was, I feel severe anxiety and stress. It came out of nowhere and it took a couple of days or so to go away. My parents had no idea how to deal with it, but it was not debilitating or anything like that. Just really crap.

Fast forward to my 20s, I spent the majority of them having panic attacks and anxiety that again would come out of nowhere and last 2-4 days. Again, not debilitating, but they really fucked up a good portion of my month.

I reached a point were I got so fed up with it, that I decided I needed to do something. The first thing that helped, was an acceptance that they will happen and I can't really avoid them or predict them. The second was the realisation and understanding that they only last two or three days max.

Once I reached that step, then whenever the panic attacks came, I would realise it was happening, not fight them and take comform in the fact that it will be gone in a couple of days and I can continue with my life.

This went on for a few years until they became sparser and sparser and have mostly disappeared. I felt incredibly proud of myself for dealing with this problem, because it was really affecting my life severely.

Nowadays, I get anxiety once in a while but it is always about what the future holds and I manage it fairly well. One thing that always helps me, is feeling in control of my life, as much as possible anyway, since we are hardly in control of life.

That's interesting. For me an actual panic attack won't go for longer than an hour, the anxiety can be peaks and valleys throughout a day or while dealing with a particular problem. If a car ride is causing my anxiety then it ending and getting out of the car begins relief, though this is only when I can actually pinpoint the cause of anxiety as it doesn't always have a clear cause but I've come to the conclusion any sort of stress is at the root or at least magnifies it. I don't know what to make of your version of dealing with this, on one hand it sounds like besides those 2-4 days life was normal for you? And I can actually envy that but I also don't know how I'd handle 2-4 days straight of anxiety without relief, what is sleeping like during this period?

It's good you seem to have overcome it. As I'm nearly at 20 years of these problems I'm not sure that's happening for me, for me it's more about knowing how to cope with them when they show up. My main goal is improving my health because if I improve my physical health I assume the mental stuff at least gets better.

 

[Dreamlord]

if I improve my physical health I assume the mental stuff at least gets better

If you are willing to put serious effort into dealing with one single thing, then improving your physical health would be number one. Because this is something that you have a lot of control of. If you are overweight, for example, setting milestones and goals to get fit, will do tremendous good to your overall wellbeing and I can guarantee that it will help with your mental world. It is not just the result, but excercise it proven to improve mental health.

And food. If I'm not mistaken, I've read your fast food preferences. Ditch all that shit, make it once a week only and start cooking. Veg, pulses, chicken, is not expensive. No more than McD.

 

[Explosive Zombie]

If you are willing to put serious effort into dealing with one single thing, then improving your physical health would be number one. Because this is something that you have a lot of control of. If you are overweight, for example, setting milestones and goals to get fit, will do tremendous good to your overall wellbeing and I can guarantee that it will help with your mental world. It is not just the result, but excercise it proven to improve mental health.

And food. If I'm not mistaken, I've read your fast food preferences. Ditch all that shit, make it once a week only and start cooking. Veg, pulses, chicken, is not expensive. No more than McD.

You might be thinking of my contribution to the best fast food thread? I don't have fast food often enough for that to be my issue tho it doesn't help. I tend to need relatively extreme diets to lose weight like I've done Keto before, among my prescriptions are pills that make weight loss difficult so i tend to need to go all in on something, and plan to again soon

 

[regawdless]

Remember that online video job interview I had a couple weeks ago? They called me, again said how much they liked the first interview. I'll have an in-person meeting with them tomorrow. With their CEO, HR dude and Product Management Director. Looks good so far and I'm excited for tomorrow.

They have been bought by a multi billion euro company some years ago and are now growing like crazy. Therefore it can be stressful and rough, from what I've heard. But that's no different to my current job and this potential new one is way closer to my home, with the option of doing home office from time to time. I would save one hour of driving per day.

Wish me luck!

 

[Allnamestakenlol]

Remember that online video job interview I had a couple weeks ago? They called me, again said how much they liked the first interview. I'll have an in-person meeting with them tomorrow. With their CEO, HR dude and Product Management Director. Looks good so far and I'm excited for tomorrow.

They have been bought by a multi billion euro company some years ago and are now growing like crazy. Therefore it can be stressful and rough, from what I've heard. But that's no different to my current job and this potential new one is way closer to my home, with the option of doing home office from time to time. I would save one hour of driving per day.

Wish me luck!

If they question your integrity, ability to interact with others, level of maturity, political inclinations, or your intelligence, send them a link to your D-Pad account so they can peruse your posts. I'm sure that would surely help seal the deal. I'm also available as a character reference. I kid, I kid. In all seriousness, good luck!

 

[regawdless]

If they question your integrity, ability to interact with others, level of maturity, political inclinations, or your intelligence, send them a link to your D-Pad account so they can peruse your posts. I'm sure that would surely help seal the deal. I'm also available as a character reference. I kid, I kid. In all seriousness, good luck!

World section would be unavailable for them, that would leave... more than enough disturbing shit, still.

Thanks!

 

[TaySan]

I do inventory for bars, restaurants and clubs throughout the city. Mostly count and weigh all alcohol.

 

[Explosive Zombie]

I do inventory for bars, restaurants and clubs throughout the city. Mostly count and weigh all alcohol.

How often do you have to tell them they are a few pints short?

 

[lock2k]

I do inventory for bars, restaurants and clubs throughout the city. Mostly count and weigh all alcohol.

 

[TaySan]

I don't interact with the clients I just do the initial counts then our processors come in to check/fix if we made any mistakes then they send the final report. Work all night into the morning when businesses are closed.

 

[lock2k]

I don't interact with the clients I just do the initial counts then our processors come in to check/fix if we made any mistakes then they send the final report. Work all night into the morning when businesses are closed.

Don't smoke, don't drink, that's why I don't be by the bar, baby

 

[Aarbron]

Work for an Australian university as a research fellow (with the occasional bout of teaching) in economics.

I would like a career change though. Academic s are bastards to deal with and there is little career progression. Was thinking or moving into electrical engineering.

 

[Dr. Farnsgoth]

Work for an Australian university as a research fellow (with the occasional bout of teaching) in economics.

I would like a career change though. Academic s are bastards to deal with and there is little career progression. Was thinking or moving into electrical engineering.

I hear lesbian dance therapy is hot right now

 

[Calcium]

I hear lesbian dance therapy is hot right now

Lesbian dance therapy has always been hot.

 

[Dr. Farnsgoth]

Lesbian dance therapy has always been hot.

Have you seen actual lesbians irl?

 

[Calcium]

Have you seen actual lesbians irl?

Probably? I've seen a lot more of them on the internet and they are predominantly hot. Let me have this.

 

[Aarbron]

I hear lesbian dance therapy is hot right now

Get with the times! Lesbian dance therapy in the academy is part of the pre-post modern deconstructed paradigm of gender & sexuality. We now live in a post-post modern world where everything is viewed through the prism of queerness in academia... Including accounting:

Acquire

Queering Accounting

www.queeringaccounting.com

 

[lock2k]

Get with the times! Lesbian dance therapy in the academy is part of the pre-post modern deconstructed paradigm of gender & sexuality. We now live in a post-post modern world where everything is viewed through the prism of queerness in academia... Including accounting:

Acquire

Queering Accounting

www.queeringaccounting.com

I knew accounting was a way to get fucked but this is too much

 

[Dr. Farnsgoth]

Get with the times! Lesbian dance therapy in the academy is part of the pre-post modern deconstructed paradigm of gender & sexuality. We now live in a post-post modern world where everything is viewed through the prism of queerness in academia... Including accounting:

Acquire

Queering Accounting

www.queeringaccounting.com

 

[CloudNull]

Was thinking or moving into electrical engineering.

 

[regawdless]

thinking or moving into electrical engineering.

This, engineering and IT is were the money's at. I studied business management and moved more into engineering.

 

[Dr. Farnsgoth]

@Aarbron

I was in mining doing FIFO, then went to academia, hated it, then went back to mining in a corporate role. It's nice not having to worry about whether I'll have a job next week.

 

[Mr Shifts]

Parents died when I was 14 and I dropped out of school.

Lived on the streets/squat houses for a few years.

At 17 got a job as a Operating Theater Assistant - did that for 3.5 years.

Left the OT work and started working for touring bands as a Guitar Tech - did that for about 3 years.

Worked as a Commercial Painter for about 3 years.

More Guitar Tech work for 1.5 years.

Scored a job as Purchasing Officer for the State Government Pathology service, did that for 2 years.

Served as a Pathology Lab Assistant within same orginisation for 2 years.

Transferred to District based Clinical Procurement for 5 years.

Did a stint in Pro Audio retail for 1.5 years.

Back to Hospital based Clinical Procurement Project roles focused on auditing and legislation enforcement for 4.5 years.

Software Development in UI/UX for Medical ERP systems - 4 years.

Currently a self employed Sole Trader setting up and managing Small Business IT requirements for the past 3 years.

Have done ok all things considered - I have a nice house, car, wifey and a kiddo in a decent school with the great benefit of working from home unless meeting clients at their workplace.

 

[Dr. Farnsgoth]

Parents died when I was 14 and I dropped out of school.

Lived on the streets/squat houses for a few years.

At 17 got a job as a Operating Theater Assistant - did that for 3.5 years.

Left the OT work and started working for touring bands as a Guitar Tech - did that for about 3 years.

Worked as a Commercial Painter for about 3 years.

More Guitar Tech work for 1.5 years.

Scored a job as Purchasing Officer for the State Government Pathology service, did that for 2 years.

Served as a Pathology Lab Assistant within same orginisation for 2 years.

Transferred to District based Clinical Procurement for 5 years.

Did a stint in Pro Audio retail for 1.5 years.

Back to Hospital based Clinical Procurement Project roles focused on auditing and legislation enforcement for 4.5 years.

Software Development in UI/UX for Medical ERP systems - 4 years.

Currently a self employed Sole Trader setting up and managing Small Business IT requirements for the past 3 years.

Have done ok all things considered - I have a nice house, car, wifey and a kiddo in a decent school with the great benefit of working from home unless meeting clients at their workplace.

That's a hell of a comeback brother

 

[Mr Shifts]

That's a hell of a comeback brother

Best decision I made was not working for someone else. I highly recommend that option for people in their 40's (I'm 49 now) if they are at a crossroads in their career path. By that time you will have the runs on the board re: manage processes/solve problems in the broader sense. I 'll never go back to the Master/Slave(1) work dichotomy. Make hay while the sun shines.

 

[Dreamlord]

Parents died when I was 14 and I dropped out of school.

Lived on the streets/squat houses for a few years.

At 17 got a job as a Operating Theater Assistant - did that for 3.5 years.

Left the OT work and started working for touring bands as a Guitar Tech - did that for about 3 years.

Worked as a Commercial Painter for about 3 years.

More Guitar Tech work for 1.5 years.

Scored a job as Purchasing Officer for the State Government Pathology service, did that for 2 years.

Served as a Pathology Lab Assistant within same orginisation for 2 years.

Transferred to District based Clinical Procurement for 5 years.

Did a stint in Pro Audio retail for 1.5 years.

Back to Hospital based Clinical Procurement Project roles focused on auditing and legislation enforcement for 4.5 years.

Software Development in UI/UX for Medical ERP systems - 4 years.

Currently a self employed Sole Trader setting up and managing Small Business IT requirements for the past 3 years.

Have done ok all things considered - I have a nice house, car, wifey and a kiddo in a decent school with the great benefit of working from home unless meeting clients at their workplace.

Respect.

 

[regawdless]

I'm creaming.

The job interview went great.

First 25min, I was alone with the Director of the division I would work in. He said that we are waiting for the CEO, who will join later and that now I could ask all work related questions. So I dove deep into their development structures, how they handle their agile software development and stuff. The dude was smiling all the time, because I asked good questions that always hinted at underlying issues every team has. They are a smaller company with like 380 employees over all, with around 100 in that location. The CEO was a software developer there and is still very present. They got bought by a huge ass company, but remain an "independent" unit.

Then the CEO joined, listened for a couple minutes, then asked me:
"Is there a specific reason why you're asking such detailed questions, something in your current company that you don't like and you want to escape from?"
I said to the CEO: "if I'd directly ask you about your company culture, your philosophy as a CEO and your vision for the future, you would give me five standard HR filtered sentences. But if I ask the person responsible for the development about how your teams solve very specific conflicts that are present in every company - it reveals what kind of leader you are and how you run this place."

He smiled, asked one more question, stood up, said "It was a pleasure. We'll see each other." And left.

I guess that's a positive sign. Talked extensively with the other dude, two and a half hours overall. They'll call me again on Monday, but try to make a decision earlier. They said they want to finish the whole recruiting process till end of this month.

If I get a positive answer, which is very likely, next up will be contract negotiations. Which always have the potential to crush things. So I remain cautious.

 

[Hostile_18]

I'm creaming.

The job interview went great.

First 25min, I was alone with the Director of the division I would work in. He said that we are waiting for the CEO, who will join later and that now I could ask all work related questions. So I dove deep into their development structures, how they handle their agile software development and stuff. The dude was smiling all the time, because I asked good questions that always hinted at underlying issues every team has. They are a smaller company with like 380 employees over all, with around 100 in that location. The CEO was a software developer there and is still very present. They got bought by a huge ass company, but remain an "independent" unit.

Then the CEO joined, listened for a couple minutes, then asked me:
"Is there a specific reason why you're asking such detailed questions, something in your current company that you don't like and you want to escape from?"
I said to the CEO: "if I'd directly ask you about your company culture, your philosophy as a CEO and your vision for the future, you would give me five standard HR filtered sentences. But if I ask the person responsible for the development about how your teams solve very specific conflicts that are present in every company - it reveals what kind of leader you are and how you run this place."

He smiled, asked one more question, stood up, said "It was a pleasure. We'll see each other." And left.

I guess that's a positive sign. Talked extensively with the other dude, two and a half hours overall. They'll call me again on Monday, but try to make a decision earlier. They said they want to finish the whole recruiting process till end of this month.

If I get a positive answer, which is very likely, next up will be contract negotiations. Which always have the potential to crush things. So I remain cautious.

You must of put a your stat points into Speech that day, well OP

Nothing exciting for me. I'm in Retail Management. Not so great for money but I can leave at the end of the day and forget my job till the next. Always contemplating what my next step might be if I left retail. Love I get quite a lot of free time been single at 37 with no kids. Really should settle down soon though!

 

[CloudNull]

I'm creaming.

The job interview went great.

First 25min, I was alone with the Director of the division I would work in. He said that we are waiting for the CEO, who will join later and that now I could ask all work related questions. So I dove deep into their development structures, how they handle their agile software development and stuff. The dude was smiling all the time, because I asked good questions that always hinted at underlying issues every team has. They are a smaller company with like 380 employees over all, with around 100 in that location. The CEO was a software developer there and is still very present. They got bought by a huge ass company, but remain an "independent" unit.

Then the CEO joined, listened for a couple minutes, then asked me:
"Is there a specific reason why you're asking such detailed questions, something in your current company that you don't like and you want to escape from?"
I said to the CEO: "if I'd directly ask you about your company culture, your philosophy as a CEO and your vision for the future, you would give me five standard HR filtered sentences. But if I ask the person responsible for the development about how your teams solve very specific conflicts that are present in every company - it reveals what kind of leader you are and how you run this place."

He smiled, asked one more question, stood up, said "It was a pleasure. We'll see each other." And left.

I guess that's a positive sign. Talked extensively with the other dude, two and a half hours overall. They'll call me again on Monday, but try to make a decision earlier. They said they want to finish the whole recruiting process till end of this month.

If I get a positive answer, which is very likely, next up will be contract negotiations. Which always have the potential to crush things. So I remain cautious.

Good shit. Sounds like it went well.